I have trouble sleeping. I don’t know why or what it is. I don’t think it’s insomnia because it doesn’t feel that serious but I do have anxiety, so that may play a role. However, it comes in random waves where, for a few weeks or just a few days, I will struggle to fall asleep and stay asleep then it’ll go away and I’ll go back to sleeping like the dead. 

I’ve tried melatonin pills and even the new Lemme Sleep gummies by Kourtney Kardashian and I always get mixed results; some nights they’ll work and other nights they won’t. It’s like I have this muffled noise in my head that won’t shut off and instead will have me waking up at random times throughout the night.

One thing that has seriously worked for me are rain sounds. I don’t know what it is that is so calming and peaceful about rain sounds that can clear my mind and put me to sleep in a few minutes, but I am obsessed. I know listening to rain sounds to go to sleep is very 2010s coded lol but I’m telling you guys it works. I cannot and will not sleep without it. I have a full blown sleep playlist on YouTube filled with various 8-10 hour videos of “gentle rain storms” and “heavy rain on roof” that puts me right to sleep. 

Apparently these rain sound videos on YouTube are just recordings of food frying in some oil. And even knowing this now, I still won’t stop listening to these rain sounds. Am I the problem?